Point of No Return

aquilowind @ 2005-09-09T14:55:00

2005-09-09T18:58:36Z

I'm switching LJ's. Add me.

I'm extremely resistant to change, so we'll see how this goes. I have a feeling I'll end up coming back to this journal. So just...bare in mind this fact. Yeah, I know how stupid that is. But hey, that's me.

aquilowind @ 2005-09-08T19:22:00

2005-09-08T23:45:53Z

Looks like I'm picking Shana up from UVA homecoming weekend. I'm too nice. I swear. I'm too nice. Who's idea was this? Mine. Baaah. Oh well. I get a nice 1 1/2 hour drive up there to myself. But I swear to God, I'm listening to my music on the way home.

She's coming home this weekend. I don't really want to see her. :( I'm still upset. Hahaha. *head hangs* I'm a terrible friend for not wanting to see her. She said that we're going to go out to dinner and see a movie. Hopefully she'll drive. I need to conserve my gas. I guess it'll be fun...It'll be me, Shana, Elizabeth, and Ashley. It's always fun to be in groups. LOL

This morning I woke up around 7:25, didn't feel too well, so I rolled over and went back to sleep. Woke up exactly an hour later because I could have sworn my alarm was going off...but it wasn't. So, I got up. (Alarm goes off at 8:50.) It was nice. ^__^ I was up half an hour early. So basically, I got an hour to relax. Of course, I over did it, and got off the computer at 9:55, 5 minutes after when I wanted to leave...Oops. I didn't see the clock.

So I was late, for me. Which was 20 minutes early really. Anyway, I went to park in the vistor's parking (...I still haven't paid for my parking decal) and it was reserved for some group. x____X Where was I going to park? I wasn't going to park on the other side of the campus, that's for sure. (Sarah has two open blisters on both of her ankles. *tear* The right one bleeds.) But oh my god. I had luck. There was a parking spot on the road, right in front of the building where my class was held. Score! And I was half an hour early. Hahahah. And then I got out half an hour early. Score twice!

aquilowind @ 2005-09-07T20:56:00

2005-09-08T01:06:57Z

Oh my god. She needs to stop. Stop telling me what to do. Stop telling me how to act with my sister. Stop telling me that I need "better communication skills with Elizabeth." STOP IT. I don't like being told what to do. I don't like being told what to do by someone who has no fucking clue what I go through with Elizabeth. You don't know what type of person Elizabeth is when you're not around her. You don't know. So stop it! I hate it when people tell me what to do. As my friend I swore to God you knew that. I guess not. But no, you go on yelling at me about how sisters are supposed to act. I'm sorry, but you don't live with yours. Your sisters are not even remotely close to your age.

I wish I could tell you to back off, but no. I just sit here and take it and just nod and smile. Why? Because I don't want to pick a fight with you because I'm not as "smart" as you and I can't word what I feel so I never get across what I feel or mean. I hate this. I hate it. I hate it.

This was the straw on the camel's back. I swear. Elizabeth did that stupid thing again where I'm not allowed to like any of her music. Jesus Christ. "I hate them now. I'm deleting their music off my computer." Fucking retard. That's so stupid. Grow up and learn that you can't have everything to yourself. There is ALWAYS going to be someone out there that likes a band you like. Every fucking time.

So yes, I told her this. Then, I left and went downstairs to rant to my parents. (Okay, more like yell it at them.) FINALLY my parents agree with me on something. God. Sometimes I really hate her. We're too different. This is why we don't get along.

aquilowind @ 2005-09-06T23:08:00

2005-09-07T03:19:51Z

^__^ I have banana nut bread with cream cheese. I am so in heaven right now. Haha. And I changed my bed clothes. Yeesh. I swear, there is nothing better that. The smell of laundry. Yummy. I'm going to be sleeping nice tonight. Yes, I am a freak.

So I was almost late for class today. *eye rollage* I left the house at 10 (class is at 11), and I got 7 minutes away when I had to turn around. *blushes* I forgot my book and notebook. How I forgot that, I'll never know. I was speeding so badly on the backroads. >_< I was saying every prayer I knew. I almost hit a buzzard down near the pond (past my house). *sigh* There were two of them. They were by this cute cute cute dog that had been hit by a car. It was so sad.

I'm going to be kicking myself in the morning for being up so late. I know it. Oh well. After Seinfeld I'll go. Hahah.

Gah, and I can't wait to see that new show "Surface". That looks so cool. ^__^ And I think there's going to be this new show "Bones" on FOX. I think it's about a physical anthropologist! *gasp* Now everyone's gonna want to be one and I won't be special anymore. :(

aquilowind @ 2005-09-04T23:12:00

2005-09-05T03:16:14Z

I must thank Crystal for a lovely erm...half hour (?) of chinese checkers. ^__^ Well, two games. She was kind enought to play me because no one else was coming into my room. *clings to Crys* Totally awesome time.

Look what Shana gave me to occupy my time with!! Click me. You want to. You want to see something so adorable you'll just...die.

Another pointless post. haha.

aquilowind @ 2005-09-04T15:26:00

2005-09-04T19:39:03Z

GAH. There are morons in Farmville. Well, everywhere really. I had to go into town today with my sister to buy stuff for dinner. And while driving, we were almost into town and I go around a curve and there's this idiot who is passing this guy on a solid line. It doesn't really hit me that he's on my side of the road until I hear Elizabeth gasp. >_< The really strange part to this is minutes before, I was thinking that (since I drive a lot now that I commute) I highly doubted that I would see a car crash. But, I would probably get into one...I don't even now why I was thinking that. And then lo and behold, I almost get into one. God.

My internet has been so fucking retarded since...yesterday or so. It's been doing it now and then, but since about last night, it's been constantly doing it. It disconnects me, then it reconnects me...but it's like I'm not even connected to the internet at all. No browers connect, and I'm definately not signing into MSN. So stupid. ARGH.

Computer problems all around. My dad's computer like...broke a few days ago. He can't turn it on. It keeps saying something like "Can't find operating system." So...since I have a desktop and a laptop, I gave him my desktop. Score! That means I now have internet access on my laptop. ^__^ Where I am now. Gah. This has nothing on it. PSP, now MSN (*gasps* 7.5 is cool), and Mozilla. And also, with my desktop, I didn't have a mic. Or at least, recording ablities. ^__^ Guh, >_< all my music is now downstairs. I only have 42 songs on here. haha. *is dying* It takes forever to burn 40ish songs onto a rewritable CD and then trek back upstairs and save them on here. Oh well. I'll have it all okay soon. I hope.

My face is about to fall off. Maybe having my wisdom teeth cut out/pulled would be better than this pain. I swear, I don't see how babies do this. Haha. I'm pretty sure this is where my headaches are coming from. I wish they would just hurry up and grow in. It's been two years. *sigh*

aquilowind @ 2005-09-03T22:08:00

2005-09-04T02:26:46Z

Well, after long-last...I've gotten rid of my old shoes. That's right...those dirty ol' Skechers...3 years, I had them. I miss them. You just get set in your ways, and boy, did I like those shoes. I'm still going to wear them. I mean, how can I not? Those were my shoes. My best buddies. *tear* Yeah, I know everyone thinks I'm insane, but I was attached to those shoes.

I did get some rather nice shoes today. (Yup, still Skechers. I really did try looking at other brands, but I'm rather attached to these. 'Cept, the other shoes I've bought, I don't wear. I think that was due to my attachment of my old shoes.) ^__^ These are pretty. They're black with white and hot pink lining. Oh yeah, I'm stylin' in these shoes, baby.

Also got two new pairs of jeans. *SIGH* Really only one because (Yes, I get attached to things.) I replaced a pair of my old ones that got a hole in them. ^__^ But new clothes: yay. When I was shopping with my dad (was just me, my dad and Elizabeth at the mall), Elizabeth went into FYE and bought me Serendipity! *gasps* She's so sweet sometimes.

God, Shana's a good friend. I was really rather gloomy/depressed, but after talking to her I feel better. LOL And there's nothing like a good game of chinese checkers on Yahoo. *sigh* Why won't any of my friends play me? *snickers*

In the white countenance confession, the troubled sky reveals the grief it feels.

2005-09-03T01:55:02Z

I'm so tired my eyes are burning. *winces*

I was looking through my photobucket account...and I found something.

9 Days. God I miss him.

aquilowind @ 2005-09-02T12:37:00

2005-09-02T16:43:22Z

This post is going to be completely meaningless, BUT! I survived my first week of university. *is so very happy* After two days of crap, I honestly think I'm settling in...which is good and I thought it might happen this quickly (I hate change but adapt quickly), but I was rather worried it wouldn't. Those first two days...yeesh. I don't wish what I was feeling on anyone.

Ankle hurts though. *sigh* I think a cut is infected. It's all red, hurts, and it's...ewwie. Bah, it's probably just healing.

Today was my reunion day for old classmates, I swear. I saw Rebecca walk right in front of me when I was in the hallway waiting for history and before I could register that it was her, she'd walked out into the stairwell. Oh well. Then when I was walking back to my car after classes, Gloria was in a car and shouted my name and waved. ^__^ THEN! As I was driving home and passing right in front of Longwood, I saw Jon sitting on the wall. *stares* Well, he graduated a year before me, so he's not really my classmate. Haha.

After just 5 hours of sleep, a nap is totally in order. I think I'll sleep until Tuesday when classes resume. Yes, that sounds good. But first, lunch!

aquilowind @ 2005-09-01T19:09:00

2005-09-01T23:13:40Z

This is so depressing. I feel like Grace on Will & Grace. Travis...*sigh* I talked to Travis today. I haven't talked to him since...August '04 I think. So a year? Yeah. Jessica's party last year. God. He was literally my first crush ever. And today I found out he's gay. *stares* Deep down, I think I knew. Anyway, I'm really happy for him and all...but...why is always the cute ones?! It was awesome to talk to Travis though. *pets Travis* He's going to VCU. Guh, talking to him brought back so many memories.

I totally forgot to mention today that when I was walking up the sidewalk to Ruffner for my Archaeology Method Lab, and I saw someone coming up from the side sidewalk (So I was heading from the front to the front doors, and he was coming from the side to the front doors...yeah, that makes sense). I remember thinking Wonder who will get there first. He got there right before me. AND WHOA. I swear, he is he hottest guy I have ever seen in my entire life. Picture this: 5'10"ish, well kept dark brown hair, really pretty amber eyes, very athletic-looking (not that ewwy bulky type, more ... slender/muscular, veh-ry nice), very nice hands (yeah yeah, shut up; I have a thing for hands), and the best ass I've ever seen on someone. And that's saying something, because that guy in my biology 2 in 11th grade had suuuuch a good one. How do I know he had a great ass? ^__^ Sarah got to walk right behind him, up some stairs to the second floor. So um...yeah, it was pretty much eye-level.

*sigh* But then he turn right and I had to turn left for Room 215. *sigh* SO! If he went that way, he has to have some history class or something, because I know the history classes are down that way. ^__^ I'm going to try and find him again. Yes, I would stalk him. Haha. Not really of course...I would like to look again. :P

I'm so totally tired. And when Sarah is tired, she must remember NEVER to consume any type of sugar, ever. I had a Dr. Pepper downstairs, and I just went into hysterics. I could not stop laughing. My sister said that I go through extremes. When I get angry, I get REALLY angry. And when I'm happy, I get REALLY happy. Haha...called me bipolar. Little brat kept making me laugh 'cause I had to use the toilet and I couldn't because my mother was taking a shower. >__< Elizabeth is so mean.

I feel oddly strange. (<-- Haha, funny choice of words.) Not so much as annoyed, but blah. Frustrated? Slightly annoyed. Oh well.

Because I'm so tired, I can't rant about my old theatre class/teacher. *SIGH* What the fuck is she doing to my friends?!

// EDIT \\

I can never use any MSN emoticons ever again. Never. First it was with the "surprised" face...now it's all of them. Thanks to Ash, all the emoticons I use compares me to "my face before/during/after a blowjob." Lovely. *dies laughing*

I'm not grumpy anymore, but I was when I wrote the first bit. So I'm leaving it. FYI, I'm amused. haha. And I'm listening to MCR. Well, not of my free will. I'm stalking Ash's songs. And she's listening to MCR. LOL This has been an amusing night.

aquilowind @ 2005-09-01T14:07:00

2005-09-01T18:20:13Z

Getting up at quarter to 6 is going to kill me. I just know it. Going to be at 10:30 is going to kill my sanity.

Nevertheless, I got into Intro to Anthro, and around 8 (when it starts), Dr. Jordan looked around the room and says "I'm looking for someone in my Seminar" spots me and says "Sarah, come with me." So I get up and follow him to the lift. He hads me his coffee cup and says "Go to the second floor and see if you can find me some coffee." Then he goes on (And he's messing with me. Not bossing...you know?) to tell me that if I don't find coffee, I'll have to live with the disappointment and he'll always remember I never got him the coffee. Anyway, he had to go down to the Ground Floor to get maps for class. So I rode down with him, then up to the second floor....yeah, they didn't have coffee. LOL :) I'm glad he picked me.

Today Dr. Bates had us move around the tables before we actually started class...ok. LOL The previous arrangment was strange, and the new set-up is much better. Right...learned stuff. Got out at 12:15, got gas, came home...and as I was getting out the car, I don't know what made me look, but I tried to look for my check card. (Last time I had it was 20 minutes past when I got gas.) OMG, could not find it. >_< I finally found it at the bottom of my bag. I think I broke out into a cold sweat. So not fun.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-30T17:14:00

2005-08-30T21:34:20Z

Well, no hour wait, that's for sure. I was out of there a little after 4. (Appointment was at 3:30. X-Ray at 3.)

I had two stone left three weeks ago. Ok...one has moved a wee bit, the other hasn't. *SIGH* So he said that if it hasn't moved by 20 September (my next appointment)...I have to have the lithotripsy done again. I do NOT want that to happen again. I can't believe how painful that was. "It will be a little uncomfortable in the beginning, then nothing." Bullshit. I was trying my hardest not to cry. Haha. *is such a loser*

Goooo away Katrina. Stupid thing is FAR west of us, and yet we're getting wind and will get rain soon. AND we're under a tornado watch. Bully for us. I wish it would cool things off, though. S'hot. And humid. Oh-so-very humid. I have a long walk in the mornings, and I don't like to walk in the humidity. :( Kills my hair.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-30T12:54:00

2005-08-30T17:03:05Z

I don't know what is up with these headaches, but they need to stop.

Mmm...Anth 280...my Archaeological Method Lab....is going to be interesting. Dr. Bates is so funny. *dies* The class is from 11 to 12:15, and he let us leave at 11:45. I think I was skipping back to my car. *sigh* Though, I think we're going to be in teams...Baaah. WELL! There's this guy who sits next to me and I don't think he knows anyone in the class, so! If that happens, and we need to get together, I think I'll ask him...Dun dun duuun.

So I walked into that class, and Dr. Jordan was still in there (Has a class before mine in that room) and he said something to me that I didn't quite catch. So I was quiet for a minute, trying to figure out what he said. Apparently, I had a confused look on my face and he said something along the lines of "Sarah! I just called you Whitney. Yesterday was Anne, and today is Whitney. I'll keep going around in circles until I get it right." Something like that. It amused me.

*sigh* Doctor's appointment today. Boo...another X-Ray. Then probably another hour wait until I see the doctor. Bah.

Good point of uni: Teachers let you go whenever. Hahaha.

Guh, I love this song.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-29T13:05:00

2005-08-29T17:14:11Z

Oh my god. Well, that was interesting to say the least. Dr. Jordan in nice (he's my Intro. to Anthro. professor and Longwood Seminar professor). But...in my seminar (right after Intro to Anthro) he kept calling me Anne...LOL So after class when he was going to show me where my advisor's office was (and after an entire class of calling me "Anne") I came up to him and said "Can you show me where Dr. Dalton's office is? And my name is Sarah." He said next time just yell at him because if I don't, he'll get an F in getting names right. Ha...

History 110 was alright...REALLY hot guys in that class.

Intro to Archaeology. Oh boy. I like Dr. Bates. He started class by watching the first 15 minutes or so of "Raiders of the Lost Ark." haha. This class is going to stress me out, I can just see it happening now. 23-25 September and 7-9 October, we're going to spend Friday night through Sunday down at Staunton River, excavating. Oh joy. Sleeping in a house with a bunch of people I probably will never talk to. (I say this now.) And then I'm going to have a project that involves "teaching a class for me." And then a 12 1/2 research paper. This all being at the beginning of the semester. Gaaaaaah.

Dropped my "statistical decision making" today. *sigh* My advisor said that I'm 2 credits behind. I was taking 16, now I'm just taking 13. But, I still don't see how this makes me behind because I have 27 under my belt as it is...oh well. Shall deal with this later. At the moment, I am in serious need for a nap and lunch.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-29T06:14:00

2005-08-29T10:21:08Z

I think I drove everyone insane yesterday. x_X Sorry. Shana was SO nice to me. She calmed me down quite a bit. I swear, we have the most dysfuncional friendship known to mankind. LOL

Anyway. I've been awake since ten minutes 'til 6 and I'm oddly awake. I think I fell asleep a little after 11. Almost 6 hours, not bad...not as much as I would like, though. Bah!

All I can say is that I am not as nervous as I was this weekend. Which is probably just because it's early in the morning, the sun hasn't risen yet, making it dark in here, making me think it's at night. Haha. I am so cold. >__< Freezing. My hands are going numb.

I thought I would make this post so when I look back at this later, I'll laugh at myself and call myself a loser for worrying. Ha.

Here we go.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-28T19:53:00

2005-08-28T23:57:10Z

I think Shana has stolen all of my enthusiasm for tomorrow...

First thing she said to me today when she IMed me:

Shana Marie : "Wahoo-wah Wahoo-wah, Univ-v Virginia, Hoorah-ray Hoorah-ray, Ray Ray UVA!!!" says:
u have classes tomorrow!

Yippie-skippie.

Anyone want to go in my place? *soooo does not want to go*

aquilowind @ 2005-08-28T15:04:00

2005-08-28T19:08:19Z

So totally forgot they moved to Memphis *load off shoulders*

God, that's a scary storm. It's going to hit New Orleans, and that's below sea level...my dad said that he heard once that if a cat. 5 storm was to hit New Orleans, it would be the worst American disater ever. I believe it. *prays everyone will be safe...though, you know not everyone will make it out of this* They've evacuated low-lying lands...I just really hope this isn't going to be too bad. It will be, there's no getting around that...*sigh*

Saw Tara today ^__^ *dies* Scared the crap out of me. I'm standing in the aisle looking at shampoo for my sister, and someone comes up behind me and hugs me. Sooo glad I saw Tara. *tear* I won't see her this year. :( Well, much. LOL I'll still hang around the high school.

Mini updates

2005-08-28T05:57:55Z

Great. Something more to worry about. I really hope that hurricane doesn't hit New Orleans...My aunt Helen and Uncle Ray live right there in the city. *sigh* They're such great people. I'm going to have to ask my mother in the morning what they're doing about the storm. I hope they get out.

Well...it's a little less than two week until Matt's 6 months anniversary of his death...Still feels like yesterday. And then, sometimes it doesn't.

Anyway, I've gotten soooo many good songs lately! Keep them coming my way ^__^ Crys sent me this reaaally pretty one earlier today. Well, we tried twice. LOL First time I got disconnected.

I have another doctor's appointment on Tuesday. *sigh* I just have a bad feeling they're going to say I have to have the lipostripsy again. I just know it. My appointment is at 3:30, and I have to have an x-ray before that, but my classes end at 3:15. Bugger. But, the hospital is right near the school, and I am thinking about dropping that math class. There is no way I'm going to take that. It just seems...far too hard for me. I'm better at numbers, and that seems like it'll be theories and crap. Oh well, we'll seeeee.

Let's see...what else? Going to Longwood tomorrow to buy the rest of my books, with my dad. Haha. Then I think we're going to buy school supplies, maybe we'll get my parking permit (dunno if they're open on Sunday) and I think there was something else, but it's slipped my mind. Oh well. ^__^

I dooo believe I'm going to go to bed. Hahaha, I'm in such a good mood. I love it.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-26T16:06:00

2005-08-26T21:32:25Z

Orientation...the hell that I've been dreading. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. (Of course. It always works out that way, doesn't it?)

Check-In was at 9:45-10:30. So, I decided to get there...early. I left the house around 8:50 and got there around 9:15-9:20. It was murder trying to go down High Street (Right in front of Longwood) because there's French Building (a Dorm), so people were moving in which meant the street was, for the most part, blocked. Police were directing traffic. And so, I drove around for ten minutes trying to find a place to park. I ended up nearly on the other side of the campus (Jamin was riiiight there on High Street), by the library. Well...I was sort of by the library. It's down the hill, and I parked at the top of the hill. So, I walked down Griffin Street (Blvd...rd...lol?) to High Street and then to Jarmin. Yeesh. Five minute walk, past people moving in. >__< Ended up at Jarmin around 9:30ish. There were two people standing outside, and I saw the doors were open, so I walked in...saw no one. THEN this guy comes in and I'm just standing in the lobby, so I asked him "Is there were Orientation starts...The meeting thing?" ...He gave me the strangest look and said yes. Ok. So I sat down on this bench in the lobby and began to wait. This one girl walked in and into the auditorium, and then the other two people standing outside walked back there, so I waited a few minutes and walked back there as well and sat down. This was probably around 9:40. *SIGH* Then I had to get back up and go back out into the lobby and give them my name, get this notebook with...stuff in it, and a name tag.

More people began to filter in. These two people sat right behind me and talked about trucks and cars. *twitch* Thankfully I didn't have to listen to that for too long because the "welcome speech" started a little after 10:30. Bunch of crap that was. I don't even remember it. It was basically the same speech I heard during that Open House my dad, Elizabeth and I went to in June/May/April...LOL I have such a great memory.

So after that, it was about 11:20, so they split us up into two groups. I was in group one because I'm an Anthropology Major. So we went off to Hiner building to take a placement test. OH MY GOD! I am so proud of myself. I mean...major proudness. There was about...mreh 50 people? And we were about to start taking the placement test, and I really didn't want to, so I raised my hand and asked "What if you don't want to take the language you took in school?" And I saw Greg. x____X He was staring at me. I swear, 10th grade, I had the biggest crush on him. I still can't believe I saw him! Some lady came over and signed this sheet that said "German 101"..I don't want to take German. I want to take French again. But I want to start at French 101. Not French 202 or 320 or whatever. So in November I'm going to talk to my advisor about that. (But my Department Head said later that we could take Latin through Hampton-Sydney College [All-guys college in Farmville. I JUST might want to do that :P Be around all guys...haha])

So I left the placement test. Well, first I made sure I could. I asked the Orientation leaders "So we can just...go float around the campus?" Again, another weird look, but with a laugh. So I...left campus. *dies* I went to Wal*Mart's car park and sat there until 11:50 or so.

This is when I parked on the waaay other side of the campus. But, it was still near the library, so I walked in (after paying my fine *much eye rollage*) and went up stairs, grabbed a book (Xanth, no less) and sat down to read until 12:45. I didn't have to be in Room 115 in Ruffner Building until 1:20 when my Department Meeting began. But first, I had to find that room. Haha, and not to mention walk there. You know, Longwood is not a big school...but I swear, it's HUGE. It took me a good ten minute walk to get from the library to Ruffner. So it was about 1 o'clock when I got to Ruffner. I sat in the lobby for five or so minutes, then went to go find room 115. LOL I found it in a relatively short amount of time. So I got to wait for fifteen minutes until the Department Head came and unlocked the door.

That meeting...really put me to ease. That was the only good thing about that day. So, we went over what we have to do before we graduate and all. *Is so glad she had many credits out of the way* I only have 93 more credit hours left. LOL Not 120. Score. Then the woman said that if we were happy with our schedule, we could go get our IDs and leave. THANK YOU GOD.

Or so I thought. I stood in queue for an hour. Literally, an hour. 58 minutes, exactly. Oh my god. So many hot guys go to my university. And I was stuck behind two of them, and there was one three people behind me. *dies* So I got my picture taken, which turned out oddly well....lol, and then I got to leave. *died of sheer bliss* I got home around 3:50ish. I was so tired driving home, I was afraid I was going to fall asleep. So I just turned up the music.

Today:

Elizabeth and I left the house around 11:40 for Longwood. Again. I needed to buy my books and drop off my laptop to get it configured for their wireless internet and crap. BUT as I was dropping it off, I was told I'd have to do that later in the week when they email me when to do that.....-_- ok. so I left to buy my books. Which was cool because for all the Freshmen, they already got their books and put them in boxes. But, I think they didn't have my complete schedule, because I only had one book. My Anthro 101 class. So, my dad and I are going to go back on Sunday and buy the rest. (Because God knows, I'm going to at least need a History book, right? Hahaha. And Math. Though, I think I'll drop that class...)

Then we came home. I checked my email. I had an email stating that I could drop off my laptop. *clears throat and tries not to get angry* So. We took my sister's car back into Farmville. I live 25 minutes from there. So that's almost 100 miles today. *sigh* So we dropped off my laptop, and bought ice cream for my sister's cake.

And it feels nice to relax. LOL

aquilowind @ 2005-08-25T08:25:00

2005-08-25T12:31:41Z

Ok. I leave in 10 minutes for Orientation and I'm terrified. I know normal people wouldn't be taking this this bad...so why am I? There is not real explanation as to why I'm so nervous. I've never been this nervous about anything. Never when I was performing a play, or auditioning for All-District, or in that State Festival thing...Ok it might have come close in the State Festival...GUH! I don't want to go.

My mother has been so nice to me about this...it's almost scary. I mean, she's a nice/caring person...but whenever I've been anxious, she's never like this. She's given me sleeping pills, and she's going to give me this sort of...calming pill. She's made me one of my favourite dinners...*raises eyebrow* I'm not used to it. Well, she used to do this sort of stuff when I was growing up, but as I got older she stopped. LOL *head hangs*

I guess I'll have a full report when I got home later tonight............*clings to the doorframe*

Can't stop shaking.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-24T02:27:00

2005-08-24T06:42:33Z

Ahhh...tonight is the night of new music that's great. GUH! I heard Tatu's new single "All About Us" and I must say "whoa." This song...I like it so much more than their old stuff. It's really...I like it. LOL

And also, I heard this song "Unbelievable" by Kaci Brown on the radio tonight. Yeesh. Good. I thought it was this other singer for a minute so I was like "Cool. New song."

Learned a good lesson tonight: Sarah must never go to bed at 9:30 for she wakes up later and cannot sleep.

Orientation...I got an email telling commuter students to get to Jarmin at 9:45-10:30 to sign in. Brilliant.

I'm in Group One
10:30-11:00: Welcome blah blah blah
11:10-12:00: Language Placement Test. (Ok...I don't know what I'm going to do here exactly because I'm going to take German...not carry on in French.)
12:10-1:10: Lunch. Brilliant. Eating lunch alone.
1:20-2:20: Departmental Information Meeting. Now, all it says is "Various Locations" *head hangs* I really hope there are other Anthropology Majors that I can follow. LOL
2:30-3:30: Identification Cards. Where is Lancaster Hall? *stares*
3:40-4:40: Course Registration. Er...I have a schedule. So do I still go?

And I have to go alone. *does not like going places alone. ESPECIALLY going alone if there's a large crowd.* *sighs* I just wish Thursday would hurry up and get here so I can get this over with.

Uggggh. I hate crushes! I HATE THEM. I haven't had a crush in a long time. LOL Like a full-blown crush. Not a "Oh wow.." but a "I think about you quite a bit." *sigh* And you know? There isn't anything I can do about it. Literally. Haha. Nor would I if I could. Because that's just me.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-22T02:41:00

2005-08-22T06:53:30Z

I seriously have the best friends anyone could ever ask for. I talked to Lawrence, I and I swear I take back everything I said about him that was bad. He's not creepy. LOL But I'm going to go see him in his dorm tomorrow evening after he gets off work and we're going to go over my Degree Audit and then if she's still in her office, he's going to take me over to this place where he's getting me a job. So, we might get that set up tomorrow. But, as he got offline, I was still totally stressed out.

And then comes Crys. *clings to Crys* I talked to her about my worries and my nervousness about going to college and she...wow, she really made me feel so much better. I was dreading going to college and she just talked to me about things and like, what she went through and such. I can't believe how much better that made me feel. I don't know whether or not it was the fact that maybe I hadn't thought of some of these things (Sometimes I have a really weird perspective on things) or the fact that, I'm not alone in feeling anxious/stressed out/panicked about going to college. But whatever it was, I'm feeling a lot better about things. And I'm getting back to my "I'm kinda excited about going to college" feeling.

My headache is even gone. And my hair is all cute. LOL I'm in such a good mood.

aquilowind @ 2005-08-21T23:59:00

2005-08-22T04:07:22Z

too much, too much, too much. I cannot handle all of this by myself. There is just no way. *manic laughter* The parking permit, I think I can handle that. I'll go to Longwood to check on that tomorrow. But where, where am I going to get $125 tomorrow? I can't go to the bank by myself.

This is too hard. I have to check on Orientation and I have no idea where I'm supposed to even go. I think I'm going to go to the New Student Resources? *cries* I don't know where that is. And I certainly am NOT going to give them a call.

I have a major headache from all this shit. It's all I can do to stay calm. I really don't want to go to uni. Haha.....this sucks.

I'm going to drag Elizabeth with me tomorrow. I'm going to Longwood, and get this taken care of. *cries*

EDIT:: (12:16 A.M.)

OMG I LOVE LAWRENCE SO FREAKIN' MUCH! He was away and then he came back from away and IMed me out of the blue because I had IMed him earlier (see previous post) and was checking to see if I was okay now. And I said no. LOL

Longwood craaaaaaaap.

2005-08-21T17:02:56Z

Ugggh. *is stressed out to the max* I'm don't stress. I just don't. I worry. But I don't stress, so you can always tell when it's really bad, when I start to stress.

*bangs head on desk* I have far too much to do before the 29th. Hell, even before Thursday. On Thursday, I go for Orientation at Longwood (University) and get registered and all that crap. And I don't know WHEN I'm going, I don't know the schedule, I don't know what I'm doing there, I don't know anything. All I know is that I paid for it, and I got confirmation that I registered. Ok, I think I know the schedule, because I looked on the website and saw a schedule....but I don't know if I follow that or what. And the first thing is on there is "Move into your dorms" and what not at 8 and the meeting in Jarmin Auditorium is at 10:30 or so...So does that mean I come at that time? Or before? Ugggh. And then Lawerence was talking about taking my placement test for french ages ago, but on that schedule, I saw that we would be taking it there....okay...so what do I do about that?

And then I don't know what to do about my parking permit. *bangs head some more* I registered my car, and then I THINK I requested a permit...But then Lawerence was talking about mailing the form in. WHAT?! I did not see that. I just saw something online. Yeesh.

And then there's the normal "oh my god. I don't want to go to uni at all" stress.

But after all this, I had a REALLY good dream last night starring my crush. So, really, all I have to think about is that and I'm in this fantastic mood. *daydreams*

aquilowind @ 2005-08-19T22:28:00

2005-08-20T02:36:16Z

Ok. I'm ok. Little break-down, but it's repaired. I was being extremely selfish and a brat. As usual.

Hnag out with Shana, Elizabeth, Ashley and Serena tonight. Serena drove because my car doesn't fit us all, nor does Shana's. She drives this MASSIVE SUV. I've never ridden with her...she's an extremely scary driver.

We went to Pinos and looked at the REALLY hot guys that work there. I was a little ill this morning, but got better, and when we were there, I started to feel a little unwell again. x__X I only had Midol with me, so I took that. Haha. It semi worked. But by the time the pizza arrived, I was feeling better. After that we went to Video 2000, so Shana could see Jonny (her brother). Guh, he's funny. You can totally tell they're brother and sister, not from how they look (they look tooooootally different. She looks like her dad, and he looks like their mum) but from their personalities. So amusing.

Then we went to Wal*Mart and saw Natalie. Aww ^__^ I'm glad I got to see her before she leaves. Apparently she leaves Wednesday for JMU. Anyway, I told Shana to distract Elizabeth while I went to buy her birthday gift. Elizabeth is such a bright kid. She knew what I was doing. Hahaha. I just HOPE she doesn't know what I bought her. But my excuse was having to use the bathroom. Yeah...I don't use public toilets. So that really didn't work out well. But I bought her Garden State, which she loves. And later next week, I have to go buy her this tub of cashews. Hahaha.

My Fruits Basket DVDs better come tomorrow. *growls* I got the fast shipping on it and I bought it Tuesday. The Expedient Shipping should have taken 2-5 days. *SIGH* At least the website is back up and I can read the manga.